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02 December 2010 @ 05:13 pm
Cause my hair dryer blew up and is no longer usable. :|

I woke up today, late in the afternoon again thanks to not going to bed until 10:30am. My grandma was a bit irate, but she doesn't feel well. I simply shrugged it off, and went to get my shower. After my shower, I went out in the living room to find my grandma is making yummy broccoli-cheese soup. I informed her of my light problem (the bulb in my room blinked out last night), and then went back to the restroom again to dry my hair. I managed to get my fringe to a damp stage when the light socket fucking exploded. Yeah, there were these sparks and a burning smell. Scared the piss out of me, it did. I yelled for my grandma, she was all aggravated, but came back for me to explain what happened. When I went out to the living room, my grandpa asked me what's wrong, and I told him. He sort of just looked at me, and then went back to eating his soup as if he didn't care.

Considering the fact that the occurrence sort of freaked me out, I bit out a nasty comment. Wrong move on my behalf. He's apparently in a foul mood, as well. I ignored him to go eat my soup. Then the yelling started.

My grandpa and grandma were arguing, I was being called my mother ("She's just like Rhonda! A drama queen! Wants everyone to wait on her, hand and foot!"), and my grandma was telling my grandpa to get out.
*Note: My grandpa was the one saying shit about me. My grandma was on my side.

You see, I grew up in a house where fighting was the norm. We were always yelling at one another. When I moved to my grandparents I was told it'd never get as bad as it did there. Well guess what. It got as bad as it did there, and has done so several times in the past, as well. I'm terrified of yelling, and so I sort of just tried to get everyone to, and I quote, "SHUT THE FUCK UP!". No one was listening to me, and they just continued yelling, so I escaped back to my room, trying to ignore the insults and accusations about me.

Needless to say, I was put off my soup, and never got to finish it.

So now things are in that eerie silence where everyone's ignoring one another. It's really rather disconcerting.

(Sorry for this double negative post. Last time it was me and my father, this time it's me and my grandparents. I hate fighting.)
 
 
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z0mb13b0y
01 December 2010 @ 09:02 pm
My dad pissed me off so badly while we were on the 'phone today. >_<

Okay, so it started off with the normal "I have medical issues, let me list them to you, and over-exaggerate everything" from my dad. We eventually started talking about tattoos which led to me saying how I wanted a 1-up mushroom on my hip. I said before I do that, though, I wanted to lose more weight. We had a short back and forth about sizes and measuring which led to talking about my chesticles. Yeah, my dad was all "well you should show them off". I was all "Why? I don't exactly like them." "Guys do," said he. "I don't care what guys like," said I. "But don't you want to get married?" he replied. Apparently, I'll only get married if I use my body. The fuck? Great dad. Just great.

We eventually got off the topic, and instead spoke of Christmas, and what to get me for a gift. He said, "I want to get you something adult. Like a necklace or ring or bracelet or earrings." My retort: "I don't wear jewellery, and it's not going to look good with my shirts". Low and behold, that led us back to the whole bit about femininity. I could just "buy some girl's shirts and then it'll look fine". I'm not fucking comfortable in girls shirts, thank you very much.

This all led up to the big controversial issue of "alternate" lifestyles where my father proceeded to show himself as a narrow-minded git I never knew he was.

He said that girls are girls, boys are boys. There's no changing that.
I said there's surgery.
He said it's unnatural.
I said so?
He told me that people should just be who they are.
I told him they were.
He said that they're RUNNING AWAY from who they are.
(My thoughts at this point: how the fuck are they running away when they're becoming who they are?)
I told him that's bullshit, and that he really doesn't want to argue with me about this.
He said he's seen my posts on Facebook, and that he doesn't believe sexuality is from birth, it's from environment. That the transgender society is also from their environment. They're allowing other people to say who they are.
(My thoughts: If they were doing that, then they'd stay as a false identity.)
I told him, that they're being who they are, and what the fuck is he doing saying that?
He continued his little tirade of ignorant remarks.
I told him if he didn't shut up, I was going to hang up on him.
It ended by him saying "Aren't I allowed my opinion?"
Fuck him, cause he's right. He is allowed his own opinion.
When he showed a want to continue to argue with me, I changed the subject back to Christmas.

Yeah. So he's not nearly as accepting as I thought he was despite saying that he doesn't care what people do.
Even my religious mum accepts that there is gender dysphoria, etc. Glad to know at least one of my family members understands and supports the LGBT community. (Even though she views homosexuality and all that as a sin. She's not against them personally, though, and feels it's up to the person to decide how they want to live their life...as long as I don't transition which I have no want to do anyway.)
 
 
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z0mb13b0y
23 November 2010 @ 10:11 pm
Well this is the same issue as the last post. I don't really have a favourite. It all depends on what I want to watch.

I quite like Zombieland, though. :D


The Full Meme:
Day 01 - Your favorite song
Day 02 - Your favorite movie
Day 03 - Your favorite television program
Day 04 - Your favorite book
Day 05 - Your favorite quote
Day 06 - Whatever tickles your fancy
Day 07 - A photo that makes you happy
Day 08 - A photo that makes you angry/sad
Day 09 - A photo you took
Day 10 - A photo of you taken over ten years ago
Day 11 - A photo of you taken recently
Day 12 - Whatever tickles your fancy
Day 13 - A fictional book
Day 14 - A non-fictional book
Day 15 - A fanfic
Day 16 - A song that makes you cry (or nearly)
Day 17 - An art piece (painting, drawing, sculpture, etc.)
Day 18 - Whatever tickles your fancy
Day 19 - A talent of yours
Day 20 - A hobby of yours
Day 21 - A recipe
Day 22 - A website
Day 23 - A YouTube video
Day 24 - Whatever tickles your fancy
Day 25 - Your day, in great detail
Day 26 - Your week, in great detail
Day 27 - This month, in great detail
Day 28 - This year, in great detail
Day 29 - Hopes, dreams and plans for the next 365 days
Day 30 - Whatever tickles your fancy
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z0mb13b0y
23 November 2010 @ 12:57 am
Right, so I found this 30 Day meme while looking about various journals, and decided to give it a go. :]

I don't really think I have a favourite song per say. I just have "favourites of the week" that often change depending on my mood, etc. Recently, I've found all of Tom Felton's music, and I must say I'm quite taken by Convinced.
It's a pretty cute song in a vaguely quirky sort of way. :D




The Full Meme:
Day 01 - Your favorite song
Day 02 - Your favorite movie
Day 03 - Your favorite television program
Day 04 - Your favorite book
Day 05 - Your favorite quote
Day 06 - Whatever tickles your fancy
Day 07 - A photo that makes you happy
Day 08 - A photo that makes you angry/sad
Day 09 - A photo you took
Day 10 - A photo of you taken over ten years ago
Day 11 - A photo of you taken recently
Day 12 - Whatever tickles your fancy
Day 13 - A fictional book
Day 14 - A non-fictional book
Day 15 - A fanfic
Day 16 - A song that makes you cry (or nearly)
Day 17 - An art piece (painting, drawing, sculpture, etc.)
Day 18 - Whatever tickles your fancy
Day 19 - A talent of yours
Day 20 - A hobby of yours
Day 21 - A recipe
Day 22 - A website
Day 23 - A YouTube video
Day 24 - Whatever tickles your fancy
Day 25 - Your day, in great detail
Day 26 - Your week, in great detail
Day 27 - This month, in great detail
Day 28 - This year, in great detail
Day 29 - Hopes, dreams and plans for the next 365 days
Day 30 - Whatever tickles your fancy
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z0mb13b0y
20 November 2010 @ 07:48 pm
I lost my voice this morning, and ever since I've been very slowly getting it back. It still cracks, but not nearly as bad as when I first woke up. I really wanted to know how I sounded to everyone else today so I recorded a little sampling to find out. When I played it back, I couldn't help but laugh at how bad it is. X'D No wonder everyone else was chuckling at me when I talked. I uploaded that sampling to my tumblr here cause I was so amused. :B

In the meantime, I need something to post in this journal to make it more interesting. Those daily meme things would work like that 10 day one I did before, but I have no idea where to find them. Any recommendations? How about suggestions for my tumblr since I tend to just reblog quotes there, and that's not what I wanted to do with it?
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z0mb13b0y
18 November 2010 @ 03:07 pm
And apparently I'm being sick on purpose in order to ruin my grandma's day. Brilliant.

Okay, so I'm supposed to go to my cousin's play this afternoon to 1) take pictures of my cousin and 2) keep my grandma calm while she drives home in the dark. However, the running around we did yesterday was apparently too soon for my system, and I now feel absolutely horrid. I sort of just want to crawl up under some covers and sleep it all off rather than go be miserable in a cramped room, trying not to cough and disrupt the play. Apparently this is the equivalent to a rebellious riot to my grandparents.

First, they guilt tripped me into feeling like a total asshat. I called them out on it because honestly, I can't help that I got sick. I can't just take a potion and be all better no matter how much I wish I could. :| Afterwards, I got yelled at for being egotistic, and only thinking of myself, for not respecting my grandma by going with her or some shit like that. How dare I think of myself and never my grandma. They say the same exact shit every time something doesn't go there way. "We do all this for you, and you never do for us." I'm more often bending to their will, than my own. I've given up my plans for them plenty of times. I mean, geeze.

When I told them, "Fine, I'll go!!!!" They're refusing to allow me. Yeah. Um. I don't even fucking know at this point. I feel even worse than before now, and they're probably going to talk shit on me when my aunt asks about those pictures. ;.;

The worst part? They probably don't even believe I'm sick since I got a new game today. They probably just think I want to stay home and play that so I'm making excuses. Fantastic, amirite? orz I'm not that kind of a person, thanks.

So I'm going to go play my game now while feeling absolutely miserable on all levels.


PS: Speaking of my new game, it's Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire for the PS2. Took me a while to get used to the controls, but my spells are finally hitting my targets. XD The whole "choose your character" thing is rather annoying, though. I just want to play as Harry kthnxbai. I guess the fact that you can have three players this way makes up for the small bit of aggravation. Anyway, it's an okay game, not my favourite, but it could be worse. The camera angles are shite, but then they usually are when you don't have control over them, in my experience. At the moment, I'm wandering about the Forbidden Forest in search of Triwizard Shields. If I could figure out how to get these last two, I can move on to the first task of the tournament.
 
 
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z0mb13b0y
17 November 2010 @ 02:47 am
So I'm going to see the Deathly Hallows part 1 next week (while other people are in class/work). Fucking hell, there are no words to describe how excited I am right now. I've been seeing so many clips and stills lately that it's driving me completely insane. I, like a lot of people, grew up watching/reading Harry Potter. The fact that we're so close to the end is just a;edghaldjghalskjdadhjlajfbghak. My mind cannot comprehend.

Anyway, considering that I need something to keep me away from the internet and it's many spoilers that are certain to flood everywhere post Friday, I have a little plan. I recently went on eBay and blew a few bucks on three Potter games for the PS2 (initially because I had an urge to play some of the games I had when I was younger but was stupid enough to sell). I foresee all night gaming in the very near future. Within the next few days, I should have the games in my hand, and ready to fend off the masses until I can see the film myself. So yes, hope that my old school baby can handle the hours. She hasn't been doing too hot with extended use. :[

In less nerdy news: I missed my dentist appointment two weeks in a row. Last week, I felt ill. This week, I was ill. My throat had been hurting like a bitch, and I wasn't even able to talk without wincing. So, instead of getting more of my teeth drilled, I slept until almost 5pm. I feel considerably better now. I just have a little lingering pain that should be gone by tomorrow. My next appointment isn't going to be for a couple more weeks, and I'm okay with that.

Finishing up with something completely unrelated: I'm addicted to cranberry, blueberry, almond biscotti. I've eaten almost half of this box which isn't good considering how many calories that equals. orz But they're so goooood. *nomnomnom*
 
 
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z0mb13b0y
04 November 2010 @ 07:33 pm
Stole this off of dA. Since I hate spamming my watchers with this sort of thing, I'll just spam my flist instead. XD

I'll just place it behind a cut since it's semi-long XDCollapse )

In the meantime, I'm still going strong with this Harry Potter kick. I can't wait for the next film later in the month. :DDDDD I'm taking my mum to see it for her birthday. Nice and convenient for me...besides the fact that I have to pay.

Speaking of Harry Potter, I just got done reading a Drarry fic that totally blew my mind. Full time BDSM relationship, with Harry as the master and Draco as the slave, and it was just so fucking delicious the whole way through. The suspense in some of the chapters had me wanting to skip ahead just so I could stop squirming with curiosity. The total fic was 106 posts in length, and the epilogue has yet to be released. It had to deal with a spell binding the Malfoys and Potters and and and I FUCKING LOVED IT. OBVIOUSLY.

Now I'm reading another Drarry AU (this one non-magic) where Harry was placed in a correctional facility after almost killing Vernon before he could go to Hogwarts. I'm only on chapter 19/45, but it's pretty good so far.

All right, I'm off to go fangasm elsewhere. Gotta get back to reading. :P
 
 
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z0mb13b0y
25 October 2010 @ 04:05 pm
I might just be in love, and I hate every second of it.


The full meme:
Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot.
Day Seven: Four turn offs.
Day Eight: Three turn ons.
Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.
Day Ten: One confession.
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z0mb13b0y
1. orz <--- I don't care if that's technically not a smiley. It bloody well fits. I really need to work on a ton of promised works, but I just have no inspiration for anything.

2. X'D <--- Because everything else in life is a right riot.



The full meme:
Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot.
Day Seven: Four turn offs.
Day Eight: Three turn ons.
Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.
Day Ten: One confession.


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The Drarry fandom currently has me under it's spell (poor pun totally intended). I've been such a little fanboy the past few days. @A@ All my time has been spent reading fanfiction and looking at pictures of Harry and Draco rather than doing anything productive...not that I'm feeling up for anything productive. fffffffffffuuuuuu-

But hnnnnnnng, that pairing is so hot. >3< Honestly, I'm more likely to make some fanworks of them rather than MattMello right about now. I'd never get it finished, though, since I'd just get distracted not even ten minutes later. *headdesk*

So yeah, moving on from that, I'm in a total slump right now: writing, drawing, photography, EVERYTHING.  Shit. Fucking. Sucks. At first it was just writing. And then it was just drawing. And then it was writing AND drawing. Now that photography is thrown in there, I'm completely boned because I have to do my assignment for photo class and and and *dies*

I'm going back to reading now. =_= I'm clearly not being all too articulate at the moment (I blame it on the fact I've barely slept in three days), and yeah.
 
 
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